Season 3 Episode 10
Level of Indonesian and English fluency: Intermediate – Advanced
Indonesian Version
3,5 tahun yang lalu, saya mulai mengalami kesemutan di tangan kanan, sesak nafas, merasa ditusuk dadanya, dan berdebar-debar. Berbulan-bulan saya abaikan dengan justifikasi hmm mungkin sekedar kecapean dan kurang tidur. Tapi pada saat saya pingsan, jatuh dan kepala sampai bocor, barulah saya cek ke dokter jantung.
Beberapa tes dilakukan dan hasilnya tidak baik, saya pun divonis Tachy-Bradycardia, jantung bisa berdetak sampai 200 bpm padahal sedang duduk santai, lalu secara acak turun ke 20 bpm. Alat monitor jantung yang dipasang 3 x 24 jam juga merekam aktivitas jantung tidak lazim pada saat saya tidur, “banyak flat line”, kata dokter.
Pergi ke beberapa dokter jantung, vonisnya kurang lebih sama dan diharuskan operasi segera.
Di tengah kebimbangan itu, saya beruntung dianjurkan teman untuk kenalan dengan koleganya yang juga adalah praktisi Biodecoding. Awalnya saya ragu, tapi setelah berbicara dengan beliau lewat telepon, saya penasaran dan memutuskan untuk melanjutkan ke pertemuan.
Jadi tidak dinyana bahwa setiap sel dalam tubuh kita merekam semua kejadian, positif-negatif, tanpa bisa dibedakan mana yang baik dan buruk. Dan bukan hanya ucapan, tapi apa yang kita pikirkan, rasakan, itu terekam dan hal-hal negatif yang kita pikir termanifestasi biasanya dalam bentuk penyakit.
Menariknya, sesi Bio Decoding ini sekedar berbincang tapi pada suatu titik, saya menyadari bahwa selama beberapa bulan sebelum sakit dada itu dimulai, saya banyak membatin “Cukup”, “cukup”, “saya cape”, “Nggak mau terus begini”, “cukup” karena pada saat itu kebetulan sedang mengalami cukup banyak hal yang bikin frustasi.
Pada saat saya bercerita itu kepada sang Biodecoder, dia hanya bertanya “are you suicidal?” yang tentu membuat saya kaget. “ahhh..Tentu nggak! Saya cinta kehidupan lho!”, “Lalu kenapa kamu banyak ngomong spt itu?” Jrengg…saya rasanya tertohok.
Yang saya ucapkan dalam hati tanpa saya sadari, sekedar ngomong pada saat cape….ternyata dahsyat impactnya. Saat itu juga saya tersadar, bahwa saya sendirilah yang menyabotase diri saya. Saya sadar saya bos dari tubuh saya sendiri, dan pada saat bos selalu minta berhenti karena cape…..organ saya cuma mematuhi, dengan cara apa? Tubuh saya langsung bekerja sama untuk shutdown saya, tentunya secara alami, yang termudah adalah dengan shutdown dan mengacaukan jantung saya, biar cepet mati. Ya, begitu! Gila kan, saya baru paham apa yang dimaksud betapa luar biasa manjurnya kekuatan pikiran!
Sejak kesadaran itu, dengan tekad baru, saya berusaha untuk melakukan afirmasi perubahan dan hati-hati terhadap apa yang saya pikirkan, apalagi ucapkan. Percaya atau tidak, saya sembuh lho dalam hitungan bulan, segala sakit jantung dan dada tertekan, tertusuk itu raib.
English Version (5:00)
3.5 years ago, Clarissa started experiencing a tingling sensation on her right arm, difficulties in breathing, sharp pain in her chest and palpitations. She chose to ignore them thinking that they are due to exhaustion and lack of sleep. But when she passed out, fell and hit her head (the wound requiring stitches), she decided to consult a cardiologist.
Several tests were conducted and their results were not good; Clarissa was diagnosed with Tachy-Bradycardia, where the heart can beat up to 200 bpm although she is sitting in a relaxed manner, then randomly drop to 20 bpm. The heart monitor that was placed on her for 72 hours also recorded irregular heart activity when she was asleep, many flat lines according to her doctor. Consulting a few other cardiologists also brought on more or less the same diagnosis and it was advised that she immediately undergo surgery.
In the midst of the confusion, Clarissa was fortunate to be advised by her friend to see her friend’s colleague who was a Biodecoding practitioner. She was hesitant at first but after talking to the person via phone she was intrigued and decided to continue with an appointment.
Clarissa learned that surprisingly, each cell in our body records all events, positive-negative without the ability of differentiating which ones are good or bad. And it’s not just what you say, but also what you think and feel; all are recorded and the negative things that we think about usually manifest themselves in the form of diseases.
What is interesting for Clarissa was that the Bio Decoding session was usually more about talking and at one point during a light discussion, she realized that for the last few months prior to when her chest pains started, she often thought “Enough”, “Enough”, “I am tired”, “I don’t want to continue like this”; because at that time coincidentally she was experiencing a lot of frustrating issues.
When Clarissa shared this with the Bio Decoder, the person only asked “Are you suicidal?”, which of course caught her off guard. She immediately replied of course not, she loves life. “Then why did you say those things?”. Hearing that, she had an eureka moment where she was hit with a sudden sobering realization.
Apparently, what Clarissa thought of subconsciously, just a passing word when exhausted….had a significant impact. At that time, she realized that she was the one sabotaging herself. She realized that she was the boss of her own body, so when the boss always asked to stop because of exhaustion….her organs only obeyed, in what way? Her body immediately cooperated to shut down, in a natural way, the easiest being shutting down and creating chaos with her heart to speed up her death. It’s crazy how she just only understood what was meant by it and how powerful is the mind itself.
Since that revelation, with new determination, Clarissa tried to make affirmed changes and be mindful with what she thinks and says. Believe it or not, she recovered within months, all the heart issues and sharp chest pains disappeared.
This is a story from Clarissa Jayakumara, who is originally from and currently residing in Jakarta. She is the co-founder and photographer at a Production House Clarissa+Peddy Photography, founder and illustrator of Kisarisa, an artist and an animal person.
Her works can be seen in her website: http://www.clarissapeddy.com
Vocabularies
Kesemutan : tingling
Abaikan : ignore
Bocor : leak, can be used for tires, pipes, anything that leaks.
Kepala bocor : head wound, usually requires stitches
Lazim : usual
Dinyana : thought, assume
Membatin : internal thought
Tertohok : slapped, hit
Bos : boss
Manjur : powerful, potent
Raib : disappear
Jreng… : sound illustration of something is about to happen
Mensabotase : sometimes people say menyabotase, men-sabotase is one of the examples people use active action words by adding the original word (sabotase) and the prefix (me/men).
other examples are, men+cuci (menyuci), men+curi (menyuri)
Indonesian language used here is in the daily-conversation format, that has influences from the local culture and custom. Should you have questions on the more formal version, please consult with your guru Bahasa Indonesia.
Level of Indonesian and English fluency: Intermediate – Advanced